The Cantina Mental Health Thread

Am okay thanks only thing I should not have done is fall asleep this afternoon. I wont sleep tonight and I need to go to work tomorrow. How are you?

 

I am plagued with health problems. Colitis, gastritis, esophagitis, (just to name a few), and now, possibly COPD or Lung Cancer, doctors don't know yet. Can't seem to quit smoking, especially with how crappy life has become.

There, I've said it.

 

This is why I spend most of my time in the cantina,it just seems to have gotten out of hand,some of the comments posted are downright offensive.then we have the same old posters just arguing about the most ridiculous things,that often have nothing to do with star wars or the actual story posted.I can only imagine the frustration this must cause the mods,to create a space like this and have absolute dingbats hijack it with their own demented agenda's,mostly just to create a stir I suspect.
What keeps me going back from time to time is the regular posters I respect,after all that blog is how I found the cantina.I always post as bandcrew,for consistency and respect,but others,who knows?
It wouldn't surprise me if there are cantina members that post under different names,I don't have a problem with that,after all its crazy out there and I think sometimes anonymity is important,this intrigues me somewhat cos there were consistent posters that I respect and followed and would like to know who they were in here.
Anyways...my advice to you @p03 is listen to @trevor,ignore the offensive comments and try to steer the conversation back to the story at hand.i hope my 2 cents were helpful..
Your friendly neighborhood bandcrew.lol

 

Sorry to hear that....yeah the harder things and times get for me, the more it seems I want to smoke. And I smoked a lot for a while. It's a hard battle to quit \m/ Hope things start getting better for you \m/

 

Holly blast dude are you O.k.?
I'm a smoker myself and have been for a long time,when I drink I smoke even more,I don't try to quit because I know deep down I don't want to at this time so I know I would just fail,I have had to stop in the past for different reasons and I have been able to for long periods,so deep down I'm just prolonging it at the moment cos I know when the time comes I should be able to.I have young kids now so the clock
is ticking.i hope you can find the strength to do so,you have to listen to your body,when you are calm and at peace you will know.as far as the other health concerns go,Jedi that blast man,pull yourself up and push through it,I know you can do it,and remember you've got the whole of the cantina behind you,there's not a member in here that wouldn't back me up on that.remember that green drink that Alfred brought to Bruce Wayne every morning?that's just spinach and berries! Drink that superjuice every morning.believe in your body.you are the T100 ,not the new model,that old model that was just goddamm unbreakable..aaaarrrrgggghhh!
Get angry with it.
Hope this helps in some way and if not at least we got a laugh (the most powerful cure all)
@emphram,your last comment"how crappy life can become" sometimes if there's no one to pick us up we just have to pick ourselves up,chin up mate and hang in there.
Outside? What a wonderful world,try to find the beauty in the little things.

 

\m/ Yeah I'm backing up @bandcrew's powerful statement \m/

 

This. All of this.

 

"Master, moving stones around is one thing, but this is totally different!"
"No! No different! Only different in your mind.."

Matt. 17:20

 

Just checking in, how is everybody? @emphram hope you are okay, not heard from you in a while, please keep in touch because am sure am not the only one when I say we are worried about you. I have a had a good weekend but am on a bit downward spiral tonight. I must running out of adrenaline or something. Bank holiday tomorrow so am probably going to be sleeping a lot.

Hugs to you all
xxxxxx

 

Yes, I hope everyone is doing well right now, too.

 

Went with my girlfriend and her mom on Thursday to Taylor University in Upland, Indiana (3-hour drive from Pickerington, Ohio) to drop her off, move her into her dorm, and experience welcome week.. I finally start school myself, tomorrow. I guess I'm not really nervous, necessarily, but.. There's something about this that's like, a huge step for me.. It's.. An odd feeling. Finally starting, after everything I've been through, with everything I've learned, and after all that soul-searching.. It's.. An actual accomplishment, to me.

 

I'm not going to say what I dealt with was tougher than others, but I will say I respect others much more than I do about my past self for creating and discussing on this thread much before me with their problems. I'm just about to start my Senior year in high school, and frankly, I can say that I have not felt this good in a long time - I'm feeling the best I ever have. To start off, my dad had a friend who made several predictions about my family before my dad got married. One, my dad would only have one child. That was true, as my mother had a miscarriage when she was to deliver a baby girl when I was 5. Two, the child would be a boy - bingo. Three. Starting around age 12, I would give my problems stress after stress with my failures, my mistakes, my actions, etc, but at the end of the day, somewhere in my early to mid-20's, I would turn out to be "extraordinary". And you know what, that third one is turning out right so far. Life has had its ups and downs, but Junior year, however, was the nadir of my very young life. I went in, with 5 AP college classes, believing I could handle all that with running and my other activities. I had to quit Tae Kwon Do, so it was down to school and running. Running gives me freedom, and when I feel great during running, it usually translates to a better time in school and grades, and vice versa. Except, I ran terrible races. I went to the doctor more than I ever have in my entire life this last year. Foot problems, breathing trouble, ripped back muscle, strains, and repeat after repeat. To give an example of how bad things got for me, I collapsed after a 2-mile race I had command of, ending up two minutes behind second to last, and for the next month or so, though I went to a trainer and all that, my AP tests, other than the ones I was always good in, were complete flops. I got a 1 and a 2, and out of a 5 point scale, it basically means you didn't take the class or were flunking it. My grades were nowhere near where they could've been, and seeing how everyone around me was rising to the challenge and succeeding, I was by all accounts depressed. Growing up in a culture where these issues aren't really accepted or understood, I struggled from last September to June with my troubles without doing anything. The only thing I did was go back to Star Wars, and that's how I found starwars7news.com. I would post and comment everyday, looking forward only to this, and nothing more. Whenever I felt and saw things get better, I would fall flat and come out even worse than I started. By June, I had had enough with how I was dealing with everything. So when I got a physical for sports, I told my mom to leave me and the doctor alone, and I explained what I had felt and had gone through the entire year. I got a mental health therapist for three months, and I got a physical therapist to heal me at the same time. Now after all the has ended, I am my team's Cross Country and Track and Field Co-Captain, I've gotten my best times ever in timed runs even before the season has started, I decided to take things a bit easier and planned out my courses more than ever, and I took the next step in my life - I've currently applied for a NROTC scholarship, which if I receive, means I get to go to college to study Film Production on a full ride and serve in the Marines as an officer for 4 years. I'm doing things to live and reach that "extraordinary" that my dad's friend told him about, but more than anything, I'm doing things that will keep me happy and successful in the the upcoming future. Just yesterday, at a Cross Country bonfire at Coronado Beach in San Diego, several friends and I were wading in the waters and were getting out after some fun, when one of the biggest rip currents of the last several years caught us. Since we didn't know what to do, several of my friends began to swallow water and were dragged out 35-45 feet out. Unfortunately for me, I was dragged out 100 feet across, and 70 feet diagonally away from them, and was apparently hit the worse. While I was very scared since I was stuck near where the waves kept breaking, I stopped swimming against the current and decided to use what the Marines taught me, and I began to stop working against the current and jump up and down, using my arms to push, signal and scream help. It took just a minute to locate the other 5, but another 6-7 to get me. As soon as I got off land, I was surprised that I wasn't terrified or upset at my bad luck. Rather, I was grateful and more appreciative to be alive, because the work I put in had payed off. If this had happened to me several months prior, I would've tallied another stroke of bad luck and probably sank out of defeat and depression. But instead, I fought, I was internally calm even though I was scared, and I did what I could to save myself. I know this was quite a bit of a read, and my issues may or may have not been as severe as others, but I can say even after such an ordeal yesterday, I'm seeing it was a positive - Now I've got quite another exciting moment this summer other than seeing Harrison Ford at Comic Con Star Wars Panel, and possibly a new story to use for college essays! And as for The Cantina, it was a great refuge, but it's now just a place I can have fun in, just like the rest of my life. Good luck to everyone else!

 

Thanks for the support @Luuke22, I hope things work out for you as well very soon

 

Am putting this here, am not sure where to post this but I have got to get it of my chest. Am in quandary about something, I made a promise with someone am not going to share it but at the same time I want to correct something which may have been presented on here on this site. Am a little angry and a little upset but am not going to break anybodies confidence. Lets just say there is more than meets the eye and people posting are only posting half stories and then getting great posts. I just close my eyes and think you should not even posts things if you can't the facts right.

Am driving myself nutty...

Now am of back to my silence.

 

I have a deep hatred towards all of humanity. Somethimes when I'm walking in the city and I see people and hear them talk I think to myself: what in the godforsaken hell am I doing on this planet, walking amongst these idiotic humans. So many things about humanity I despise: the importance of money, political correctness destroying Europe and my country, zoo's, unmannerliness, uneducated people on welfare, the way people destroy this beautifull planet with infernal speed. Yet I find myself dragged with the rest of humanity, studying business administration with the aim of finding a 9-5 job after... I hate humanity yet I cannot seperate myself from it. My dog is my best friend. All of my friends have feautures that annoy the living *** out of me, being eather greedy or not fullfilling promisis or agreements. These days I primarily find myself playing games on PC at night after my daily necessary activities to finnaly extract myself from humanity.

So there we go that's my problem lol. Don't get me wrong, I live a happy life and I am content with it. I just fear that I will be alone for the majority of my lifetime because I can hardly stand to be around 1 person for a while. I saw this threat and thought ok I post this see if other people share similar feelings.

 

If it helps, I hate life too but we march on. I work with animals and my best friends are my pets. I just spend a lot of time online to keep myself busy but I pick and choose where I go. I went on one site and it was trolls galore. They tried to track down my facebook account sending friend requests to my relatives in order to take pictures and post them online. I find it hard trusting people both in real life and on the internet. I understand your frustrations, I can't stand been around my sister, its all about me, me, me and she can't even say the word 'and' properly, grrrr!!!! lol